For all these years, I’ve been saying “I’m going to be a writer”, “I want to be a writer”. Back when I was younger, I wrote a novel-length story about Twilight. I’ve written quite a few lifestyle articles in between then and now, and then, obviously, started my blog last year. I had always wanted to be a creative writer in one way or another, I just didn’t know how. This doesn’t even make any sense. I couldn’t tell you why. But I don’t remember the last time I wrote a creative piece that wasn’t for a school assignment.
I don’t know if it’s because I’m scared, or because I didn’t know what I wanted, or because I got so used to my style of writing that I couldn’t come up with any new ideas. The last almost two years have been a huge deterrence from the plans I had for myself. I have been so focused on figuring things out, that I haven’t really gotten the chance to look forward.
I decided that it’s time to do something about all of this.
When I got the opportunity to speak with a successful screenwriter a few months ago, he suggested that I start working on a pilot to eventually use in my portfolio when applying to jobs. I told him I would do it – and I am. Just not fast enough.
It’s weird, considering I’ve always considered writing as such a huge part of my identity. And, while it’s easy to write about myself and my life, fiction seems so far off now. I’ve been thinking about jotting down some ideas for a book or a screenplay, but the thinking was always along the lines of “I’ll sit down and think when I get a chance”. By the time I got the chance, there was something else to think about. But there always is.
I think this big dream was always fun to think about and look forward to, and I figured it would just happen. I figured it would have to fall into place somehow, because I’m a writer, right? But that’s not really how it works. I met a few friends recently who have shared with me how often they write and what they’re inspired by and realized that it’s my turn. I have to use whatever talent I have and make something from it. A blog isn’t enough to get where I want to be.
I started writing a few days ago. It’s an idea that could turn into a novel or screenplay. I don’t know if it’s good, if it makes sense, or if it will flow, but I know that the words are going to go down on paper and the rest will happen how it happens.
Big dreams are so important, but if you’re too scared to back them up, nothing is going to happen. Have the confidence you need. You can’t get where you want to go without it.