independence

If there's anything that damages your confidence from the very beginning, it's a parent not showing any interest in your life. Growing up, my dad wasn't around very much. He skipped out on most of the important things that were going on in my life. I've competed in hundreds of swim meets. Summer league, club... Continue Reading →

identity

Remember when you were younger and it was the first day of school? The teachers used to ask us to participate in ice breakers, or little games for the purpose of introducing ourselves to the class. A popular one was to go around the class in a circle and introduce yourself with your name, favorite... Continue Reading →

waves

Have you ever been in the ocean during high tide? When the waves are coming so fast that you can't seem to catch your breath? That's the best way to explain how I've felt for the past year. Last summer, I was going through a difficult breakup. It happened in the end of June, and... Continue Reading →

courage

In my last post, I wrote about anticipating a three day hospital stay to undergo brain scans. I shared that I was experiencing severe anxiety about the testing, mainly because I knew the doctors would be trying to induce seizure activity throughout my stay. During my first day and night at the hospital, I was... Continue Reading →

fear

A few weeks ago, I had my first appointment with a highly renowned epileptologist. The man is brilliant: he's the director of the New York University Langone Comprehensive Epilepsy Center, has written two books, and been featured on Dateline for his expertise. For the first time in my life, I was actually looking forward to... Continue Reading →

cherish

At this point in my life, I am thoroughly convinced that the loss of a friendship is significantly more painful than the loss of a romantic relationship. It's no secret that having your heart broken by your significant other is a horrible feeling. Losing the person you counted on to understand you and go through... Continue Reading →

strength

Strength has a tendency to come and go. One minute, you're seeing things optimistically, and the next, you're feeling so hopeless, you can't even begin to think about how to recover from what you're going through. Throughout this entire past year, I put a pressure on myself to move on from my diagnosis. I told... Continue Reading →

balance

Even as a high-level athlete for ten-plus years, I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I believed that I was overweight, when in reality, I was the perfect size. I used to believe that once the scale displayed a certain number, I would be happy. Boy, was I wrong.... Continue Reading →

push

Ever since I started taking my anti-seizure medication, it has had a huge effect on my mood and my overall energy levels throughout the day. It makes me much more inclined to feel exhausted and irritable. My dosage has fluctuated many times, which has made it even harder to adjust to these big life changes.... Continue Reading →

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